I'm not talking about real roller coasters. I honestly think it's been almost 15 years since I rode my last roller coaster. I need to get out more and do some adventurous things, I guess. I'm talking about emotional roller coasters - mental roller coasters - physical roller coasters. I've been on lots of these and in an effort to keep up my 31 days, I'm going to briefly touch on some of these coasters that have taken me for a whirl in the past year or so.
We're in the midst of a mental roller coaster as I type. This whole pulling out of Iraq thing is obviously close to home. As I listened to POTUS speak today, all I could think was what a big fat, well, little skinny, teller of things not necessarily true?! While it is great to know that the war in Iraq is ending, the reality of all of our troops being back on US soil by the holidays may not be totally feasible. Being in the fat middle of the back and forth of information I get from Cpt, from the Army and now hearing what POTUS had to say can be difficult because you want to plan for the future months, but honestly you can't! We knew from the get go that this could end up being an odd deployment so none of this really catches us by surprise. Thankfully, I have faith in Jesus and can trust Him to meet our needs one day at a time, one week at a time, one month at a time. Yes, I'd love to see my husband home ASAP, like yesterday, but God called us to the Army and we take the good, the bad and the ugly and trust that the Lord is going to use it for good in our lives and in the lives of others.
1st grade has been an emotional roller coaster! I could do a week's worth of posts on this one alone. The new methods for teaching basic math principles are just weird! Honestly, there's one specific concept that I have googled, consulted other math teachers and tried to just reconcile in my brain, but it never makes sense to me! NEVER!!! There was a day not long ago that I seriously thought that I was going to pull F6 out of public school and just teach him at home. Never in a million years would I dream that I would do that, but I seriously thought about it. I feel like as a parent trying to help him with homework I do him more harm than good because I don't have a clue what concept the teacher is trying to drive home with the homework exercises. He's a good little student and seems to catch on to new concepts fairly quickly. Kindergarten was more like 1st grade here so I guess 1st grade is more like 2nd. I still get frustrated when I see what his teacher deducts points from his work for. I get aggravated and want to run and defend my poor child who is doing this stuff for the first time. I'm just not sure how a teacher can be so critical and require so much detail from a 6 year old. It's baffling, but we're trudging through and F6 will succeed despite my feelings about the methods they're using to teach him basic concepts.
Finally, the physical roller coaster. I'm not talking about major things. I'm just talking about losing that last 5 lbs! Wow. I've been on this never ending ride for 2 years now and just can't seem to stay in the fight long enough to see it gone. It's been my goal to get back to my wedding day weight and I'm only 4.8 lbs from it, but I love to eat and don't enjoy exercising and just don't have the energy to do it currently. Hence, why I'm 4.8 lbs from wedding day weight. I started eating a modified Paleo diet in August and lost about 4 lbs fairly quickly to bring me down to where I am today, but after about 7 weeks of it, I totally lost interest and just wanted to eat something processed and something smothered in chocolate. I don't do well if I can't have a handy sweet snack every now and then. So now I'm trying to just eat low carb with some low carb sweets mixed in. I've been successful for 2 whole days! Woohoo! I really do just need to get my mojo and determination back and quit making excuses. I get caught in the trap of telling myself that I'm never going to lose this if I don't just exercise like crazy and then I tell myself it's not worth it! Lots of bad self talk going on in my little brain. We'll see how well I can stick to something to get down to where I'd like the scale to tell me I am. (I know it's not all about the scale...)
The Shamu Coaster at Sea World has to be more fun than these every day life Roller Coasters! Hopefully I can trade these in for the real deal before long.
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